you watch the day breakdown in quite hymns and lose its faith in quieter breaths at moments when it becomes more and more difficult to watch the blue jays on your window sills struggle to fly with half torn wings.
you listen to the afternoon wail and beg the same way an old man begs for his wife (dead for a decade now) to hold his fingers against her breast and remind him that he can forget to take another breath and still remember the sound of her last one.
it’s here today- a sun that is struggling to rise from its grave, because sometimes the dead die in the most phlegmatic of ways-
in the eulogies of themselves that never spoke of their name.
••ra’ahe khayat
and so you say..